Inspiration

During the Olympics some of my family were glued to the tv, they loved it. My husband watched it from the opening ceremony to the closing ceremony apart from the hours he was at work of course.
Me on the other hand could take it or leave it, I'm not a big sports fan and couldn't help but think "how much money, when normal families are struggling to feed themselves." I did watch some bits but have to say it never really bowled me over, my interest was never really there.
However, tonight the Paralympic's start and I'm actually looking forward to it! I'm sure this is mainly due to the amazingly inspirational tv advert. It's amazing...the music, the images and the whole brilliance of the Paralympic's this year.
So although I'm still not interested in sport and am still slightly grumpy about the amout of money the Olympics got I feel inspired to watch some, properly watch some, put my sewing down and sit and concentrate.
At a time when I feel inspired through my work and Fairyknowz moving forward I will definitely be watching the opening ceremony :-)
I wonder how many others will...

Things need to change

I wish I could say this is what I told myself...but I didn't, I can't have the satisfaction of saying it :-D
They just did....change..or have started too :-)
I read a review for a book written by Joanne Dewberry on a website and needed to buy it, the snippet made perfect sense and was something someone had mentioned to me before but I'd not really taken any notice of after all being a mum and trying to start a business is hectic...I just went with the flow :-)
Anyway I've bought the book and am still reading so will let you know in due course.....but will say it's already making things change. I am finally in control of moving things forward and realise that I might actually be good at what I do :-)
Along the way I looked at her Facebook page www.facebook.com/joannedewberry.co.uk it's well worth a look and has great advice and links. From my mooching :-) I got "Blogging for business by Joanne Dewberry.co.uk and what an eye opener, if like me you have a blog set up, was enthusiastic and then wasn't sure what to write then this is for you! It gave me some great tips and things I'd never even thought about. It's not too long and is cut into easy sections, so for a busy mum it's great.
I can see lots of Fairyknowz blogs from now on :-)
Let me know how you think I'm doing :-)

An exciting week with far too much to do

I can predict the future...well, next Saturday night anyway.
Ready? Here goes....next Saturday evening I will be stressing, I will be grumpy with my poor husband (who will only be trying to help) and youngest daughter who is too cute for her own good. The other two will be safe with their dad lol
How do I know this will happen? Well easy really I have booked myself a space at a craft fair/ event. It's always the same. I'm officially a stess head and like being back at uni I'll leave everything to the last minute and will be winging it like an adrenaline junkie made worse by the fact I haven't done a stall since November and I've decided to controversially go without a table to see if I can draw more people into my little den :-). On top of that I have decided to do it in the same week my eldest daughter goes to France with her school for the first time and two of my children go on holiday with their dad for the longest time he's had them, abroad for the first time to Spain and the day before I spend a couple of days rest with my youngest daughter and my husband.
Blimey as per normal I have fantastic timing!

An emotional week

Sometimes I think the world's too hard, everyday feels hard. Everything feels like it needs too much thinking.
Of course it's not all the time I feel like this and I realise how lucky I am.
On Tuesday we heard that our cheap holiday to Cornwall was not going to happen due to unforseen circumstances, it made me sad. I have for some unknown reason have a need to be near the sea, to smell the sea, to walk across the beach and to feel the sand under my feet. It's been a long time since I smelt the sea...ok only since August but it feels so long.
On Wednesday, my eldest daughter played her clarinet in the school concert, she was amazing, so very clever. And as I sat there listening to all the solo pieces, I felt sad at how they all grow up so fast as well as proud at the young lady my daughter is growing into. There was a lady playing piano and as she played I watched the music flow through her, her movements were so smooth and she obviously loved playing the piano. As I sat watching her I thought about my uncle who sadly died earlier this year, how he loved the piano and amazing he was at playing.
And the week kind of carried on like that until today when my husband booked us another holiday at a well known holiday camp, and although the thought of this scares me to death it will be an adventure that our four year old will thinks heaven. With that change of mood direction came me cutting some patterns this afternoon and actually appreciating the beautiful organza flowers which I learnt to make via YouTube when I couldn't sleep in the week.
Sometimes life's is rubbish but as long as you can see that there will be a day, an hour, a minute that won't be as dark it's ok....well in my mind anyway xx

Scary!

As I sit here smiling while watching my youngest daughter playing in the bath I also think if the enormity of what's happening in my life at the moment.
It doesn't seem so long ago that I was sat in Scotland outside my beloved caravan with a glass of wine listening to the sea. A relatively happy preschool deputy on my holiday with my family, I didn't realise how breathtaking Scotland would be and how life changing that moment would be either.
As you all now know this was when I decided to try, and I don't say that lightly, to make children's clothes.
I had passed my design degree in 97 and wandered most of my life, I never knew what I wanted to be, all I knew was I quite like making things.
Anyway since then I've made clothes, sold them, ended up with facebook page, then website and now have added a shop on my website yesterday. Although my website is still being played with by my beloved husband it's there and very oddly it's mine. For yes, that's how I feel...odd.
It's like it's unreal, not mine, sure the clothes are there and yes I made them..oh my god I actually made them! :-) and I absolutely love my life.
It was a big risk and when I sadly had to give my job up in December to give my Autistic son more stability I wondered if I would ever cope and more to the point we would cope with money.
But life goes on and look where mine has gone on too :-) I'm a firm believer in fate but sometimes I wish it would wait for me to catch up :-)
I still worry someone might tell me this is all a dream or call me a fraud or worse but it seems I haven't got time to worry these days....and I love it :-)

The way things go

My daughter's preschool seems to be well and truly in party season mode. The first party in January was easy, when I asked her what she wanted to buy her friend she said make-up...easy.
Following this theme the second birthday came and I asked my daughter again, the answer came a tutu, ok so this wasn't too bad either, I'd made some for Christmas presents and had some tulle left so easyish :-)
Next party came and I asked again what she wanted to give, the answer came...some fairy wings. I looked for some but they were expensive for what they were. You Tube is such a wonderful thing, something I wasn't sure I'd use but as with all technology that I initially hide away from it appears to be quite helpful for crafts lol
After looking it up I found myself buying the stuff to make some wings, I must be mad! After layers of paint, torn hands from the wire and glitter everywhere the wings were born.
After posting some pictures on Facebook, a few customers wanting to buy some I have now added them to my making list, I love them. They're so individual :-)
I think I'm a little scared to ask what she wants to give the next little girl. I've got two weeks lol

Chickens

We've  had a new addition to the family.....Vicki the chicken.
Dropped our three children off at school and preschool and my husband and I snuck to a shop that sold chickens. I say snuck with a little chuckle, last time we went looking it was my turn to choose. Somehow we came back with a white chicken which my youngest daughter got to choose, so yes we definitely snuck lol
Anyway, first shop we went to only had brown ones and they didn't look too happy, they were huddled in a corner. So the good old phone came out and after a bit of Google'ing we found a place called Heidi's Happy Hens in Rugby, England.
It is a fab place and as the name suggests the hens are extremely happy, so Vicki was chosen :-)
Well that was just over a week ago and Mildred and Vicki are like they've been together since birth :-) they follow each other, share everything and seem to.look after each other.
The kids are still scared of them as Mildred's slightly over friendly :-) very comical to watch her chasing the kids for a cuddle :-) evil mum I know :-)