Thursday 15 March 2012

Scary!

As I sit here smiling while watching my youngest daughter playing in the bath I also think if the enormity of what's happening in my life at the moment.
It doesn't seem so long ago that I was sat in Scotland outside my beloved caravan with a glass of wine listening to the sea. A relatively happy preschool deputy on my holiday with my family, I didn't realise how breathtaking Scotland would be and how life changing that moment would be either.
As you all now know this was when I decided to try, and I don't say that lightly, to make children's clothes.
I had passed my design degree in 97 and wandered most of my life, I never knew what I wanted to be, all I knew was I quite like making things.
Anyway since then I've made clothes, sold them, ended up with facebook page, then website and now have added a shop on my website yesterday. Although my website is still being played with by my beloved husband it's there and very oddly it's mine. For yes, that's how I feel...odd.
It's like it's unreal, not mine, sure the clothes are there and yes I made them..oh my god I actually made them! :-) and I absolutely love my life.
It was a big risk and when I sadly had to give my job up in December to give my Autistic son more stability I wondered if I would ever cope and more to the point we would cope with money.
But life goes on and look where mine has gone on too :-) I'm a firm believer in fate but sometimes I wish it would wait for me to catch up :-)
I still worry someone might tell me this is all a dream or call me a fraud or worse but it seems I haven't got time to worry these days....and I love it :-)